I am always amazed at God’s effort on our behalf!  When people wonder where God is and if He cares for them or their individual situation, I find myself praying they will <<be open to>> receive a fresh revelation of His love.

My good friend, Jennifer, gave me a testimony of how her sister basically got a miracle straight from heaven the other night!  There was no denying that God had orchestrated a series of events just for her.  I have had times in my life when I knew He had done the same for me.  What an incredible feeling!  There truly is no high like the Most High!

Wow!  What a title for this entry!  And yet I’ve no idea what I’m going to write.  Holy Spirit, do your thing!

I want to begin by copying and pasting an interview I had with T. Suzanne Eller on a site called Momlogic.  I feel this excerpt will cover important elements in my faith journey:

“I said a prayer of salvation at 16 when a friend in school invited me to a youth celebration. (I didn’t even know it was a church function.) Nothing much changed until I had encounters with some ‘Rhemanites,’ a water, and a Holy Spirit baptism! I began to understand, somewhat, the meaning of a real and personal relationship with my Savior, Jesus Christ. I began going to church regularly around Easter of 2004. (The free Easter egg hunt lured me in.)

“I joined a faith and Spirit filled church where the preacher was a world renowned Bible teacher. I was fed soup, salad, meat, veggies, AND dessert…fast. My knowledge of God and the Word seriously exploded! After three years I recognized what God had planned for my life, changed my college major to nursing, and attended Victory Bible Institute/Victory World Missions Training Center. I finally had direction in life and it felt/feels GREAT!

“Having said all that, for a long time while I was sitting under great teaching in church and school, I had refused to let some things go in my life that I knew were wrong for me. We all have different things God’s dealing with us on, and some things may not even seem wrong to others, but we know and feel that they’re wrong for us. (Does that make sense?) Anyway, it wasn’t until I truly fell on my knees, broken and humbled, before God, willing to surrender anything and everything, in response to His overwhelming love for me, that I truly began to live! I would give up all my hopes, dreams, plans, EVERYTHING just to sit at His feet and love Him! I found this was the moment God had been waiting for. I now walk in a peace, joy, and contentedness that I have never known before in my life.

“Now there are so many opportunities to help and encourage others, as well as the incredible blessing of God flowing freely in my life! I can’t describe the difference!”

Thank you to the ‘Rhemanites’ I referred to in this quote.  Thank you for seeing past the outward appearance and attitudes to tend to my spirit and soul!  For this I will be eternally grateful!  [Joy(Mitchell) Wegener, Beth & Todd Davis, Brandon Shadek, and all the others I forgot to mention!] 

I have put it all on the line.  God asks “Would you remain single indefinitely if I could better use you to minister?”  After a few moments and a sigh, I answered, honestly, “Yes, Lord.”  (Can I just be honest about this?)  God inquired, “If you never step foot in Africa, never even live outside of the United States, would you prefer me still?”  Quickly now, “Yes, Lord!”  Now as I type this, I recall from years ago, God’s haunting question, “Would you leave your children behind?”  I only cried that hard a couple of times in my life, but my answer was the same.  I remember looking up to God and wondering why He would have me do such a thing as leave my babies behind with my aunt to raise them.  He wouldn’t.  He won’t.  I knew upon asking the question.  He simply wanted to know where my priorities were.

God, Jesus, Holy Spirit, my priority is only you.  I long to spend time with you and know you, really know you.  I want to cry when you cry and laugh when you laugh, I want to hurt when you hurt.  Let me see people through your eyes.  Touch their lives through me.  I yield my clay vessel unto you.  Thank you for giving me all my hopes, dreams, and desires but if they never come to pass I will be content in loving and serving you in anyway I can.

I’ve put myself completely on the altar.  Every hang-up, every hurt, every inch.  Though the living sacrifice tries to crawl off, I will not have it.  The past along with it’s wrong & bad decisions stopped here.  I REFUSE to go around the mountain AGAIN!! 

My life feels like a fairytale most days.  I am overwhelmed with joy, peace, patience….ALL the fruit of the Spirit!  Thank You!!!